The First Time (modeled after Gary Soto’s Oranges)
The first time I saw
my child’s face I was 27
flushed, and sweaty with
the exertion of labor in Texas heat.
May. Flowers blooming
outside my window, my husband
Smiling before me, holding
my hand as I touched her tiny fingers, the one whose
fact of being burned my heart
night and day, in any weather.
The nurse raised her voice at me, until
the rest was done
all blood and tissue, towels crimson
with life. I grimaced,
touched my infant, and turned away
from the ugliness of the delivery room, toward
my future and my present
a newly grown human,
until we three breathed
in unison, a family.